backagain2009

so i've decided to write again. there is a lot going on in my life that i need to get off my chest, i guess just another way of venting. right now i'm still into michael though i'm not sure where it is headed. we are both in college and i am more looking for commitment where he is not. And even when he says he doesn't want to be in a committed relationship, he wants the freedom to look in every inch of my communication devices and such. i feel as though i am a prisoner, as he always finds himself searching through my things, more particularly, my phone. why should i give this guy all the amenities of being my boyfriend without actually committing? i have really reached out to God in search of what to do but i have yet figure out what it is. scratch that, i do know what to do but i feel like i have insecurity problems and can't stand the thought of being alone. i crave attention and he does that. i love it when he calls me six times a day, leaves me voicemails and texts me constantly. i love the attention. and if he goes anywhere i won't get that attention. its just something in me. i will be returning to north carolina agricultural and technical state university tomorrow for my second semester of freshman year. this semester is yet to be my most stressful. i will miss home dearly but i am eager to get my freshman year over with. i will be newly inducted into the honors program at a&t and i am very excited. so, as life continues to be stressful, i continue to strive and be successful. thats all for now.